I like silence.
Sometimes I cannot stay silent and have to talk. The words are making their way through me. Thoughts rush to become words, to become a real thing in time and space.
I come from a country that is totally unknown. There are just few of us being able to understand each other in our own secret language, Estonian. I love to write in Estonian. It is like a holiday or a cure when I am not feeling well. Eesti keeles kirjutamine on otsekui puhkus.
Often I am forced to use some other languages to make way for the thoughts or ideas that want to be born in the big world. This is hard, much harder. I look at the words that are floating around me and wonder what they are really bringing. Was this actually what was about to happen or just an outcome of my dis-ability?
English is much more like playing than being for real. I am like a child learning the tricks of a new instrument or skill. Blogging is a safe route for me. It is not too serious, not too demanding for a beginner. It is a bit like a computer game. In blogosphere everything is allowed. You are not even expected to be correct with your grammar. It is a space of endless experimenting and freedom with words.
Every communication process has to start from within and grow to be met by the others. If it creates something new it is like a miracle. Sometimes miracles do happen. Knowing that keeps me going.
I like silence. To put the thoughts to the paper or on the webpage leaves the silence untouched.
Via texts I can talk to you in silence. We can meet.
First assignment for academic writing classes at MOOC, created by Denise Comer, English Composition I Professor at Duke University.